Sunday, July 18, 2010

Confession #1

Generally, I do not like people. I do include myself in this generalization. I am not happy with this; I do WANT to love people. I, in fact, love individuals but the general public....no. I am a believer in the Holy Bible and in God's word, "You shall love your neighbor as yourself" (Mark 12:31); which I guess I do since I find myself equally frustrating and annoying. But I digress, as this is not to be a confession about how much I want to get away from myself but how much people can get to me. Now, I am not one of those people that walks around with a scowl on there face, angry at everyone. I WANT to do good and I try to be considerate, polite, kind, helpful and giving. With that being said, I am in a, "I really dislike people!" kind of mood.

After a long day at a carnival/car show I made the bad decision to go to the grocer. While there, Pickle dropped our drink and it spilled all over the floor. I had nothing to clean it up with and I did not want to leave it so that no one would slip on it. So I rolled the cart, which both boys were sitting in, over the spill and looked around for some napkins or something to clean it up with along with a worker. Nothing or no worker to be found. I was about 20 feet from the deli and I saw that there were about 4 people waiting to be helped. Hmmm, no help there. I could not leave the kids to go walk to find a worker as they are only 2 and 4.

So I stood where the spill was and waited for the deli worker to be free. A few minutes go by and a few customers take off, presumably because they are sick of waiting. I walked up to the deli and left the kids in eyes view to see if I could quickly ask for some napkins. No luck, the customer was asking "can you now slice it a little thinner so I can see what it looks like". I did not want to interrupt. So I walked back to the kids. "How can I do the right thing here", I am asking myself. Still, no worker around. I wait a few more minutes. I go back to the deli and the lady is again asking to see another slice. I am getting frustrated. I start to ask for paper towels but the worker does not hear me as she is walking to slice the meat again. I was asking quietly as I was hesitant to interrupt. I walk back to the kids. Still no one. This is going on 10 minutes, I am guessing. I walk back to the deli as I cannot stand in line because I will be leaving the kids for far to long to do that and I did not want to lose my opportunity to ask the deli worker for help when this current customer is done. When I approach the deli, the customer is again asking the deli worker to again slice again, to see a thinner slice. I am annoyed fully at this point. So, after she finishes talking I ask the deli worker if I can quickly get some paper towels. She tells me there is a Starbucks down the way and there are napkins. I explain the situation and apologize to the customer. The deli worker gets paper towels and the customer looks at me snobbishly and says, "I don't care. Why don't you just take them with you to get napkins!". I explain that the cart is covering a huge soda spill and I don't want to leave my kids alone to get the napkins. The way she had spoken to me was so meanly that I did not respond in a nice voice, either. She continues to tell me she does not care about my kids or my situation. I say, "you don't care about the possibility of someone getting hurt or that if I leave my kids, they can get hurt?". She rudely, pompously tells me she does not care. It continued for a few more similar sentences but this is the gist of her rant.

This lady is in her late 40's or early 50's and getting this upset about something so small. Yes, I interrupted and if it was me and someone interrupted me at 1st I would be annoyed, yes. But after hearing the situation I would completely understand. I was fuming and so pissed I was shaking and I could not focus on my shopping. Then I just got annoyed with myself for letting this complete stranger get to me so badly. I am too much of a people-pleaser. And considering my view of people, if I don't change how I deal with my people-pleasing behavior then I will end up in a loony bin! If you read this huge rant about something so small, thank you! And yes, I realize that I got so upset about something so small just like this lady did. I am no better.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

31 Ways to Pray for Our Children

This list was put together by Bob Hostetler and I found it very helpful.

31 Ways to Pray for Your Children

1 Salvation "Lord, let salvation spring up within my children, that they may obtain the salvation that is in Christ Jesus, with eternal glory" (Isaiah 45:8, 2 Timothy 2:10).

2 Growth in Grace "I pray that they may 'grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ'" (2 Peter 3:18).

3 Love "Grant, Lord, that my children may learn to 'live a life of love,' through the Spirit who dwells in them" (Ephesians 5:2, Galatians 5:22).

4 Honesty and Integrity " May integrity and honesty be their virtue and their protection" (Psalm 25:21, NLT).

5 Self-Control " Father, help my children not to be like many others around them, but let them be 'alert and self-controlled' in all they do" (1 Thessalonians 5:6)

6 A Love for God's Word " May my children grow to find your Word 'more precious than gold, than much pure gold; [and] sweeter than honey, than honey from the comb'" (Psalm 19:10).

7 Justice " God, help my children to love justice as you do and to 'act justly' in all they do" (Psalm 11:7, Micah 6:8).

8 Mercy " May my children always 'be merciful, as [their] Father is merciful'" (Luke 6:36).

9 Respect (for self, others, authority) " Father, grant that my children may 'show proper respect to everyone,' as your Word commands" (1 Peter 2:17a).

10 Strong, Biblical Self-Esteem " Help my children develop a strong self-esteem that is rooted in the realization that they are 'God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus'" (Ephesians 2:10).

11 Faithfulness "' Let love and faithfulness never leave [my children],' but bind these twin virtues around their necks and write them on the tablet of their hearts" (Proverbs 3:3).

12 Courage "May my children always 'Be strong and courageous' in their character and in their actions" (Deuteronomy 31:6).

13 Purity "'Create in [them] a pure heart, O God,' and let their purity of heart be shown in their actions" (Psalm 51:10).

14 Kindness "Lord, may my children 'always try to be kind to each other and to everyone else'" (1 Thessalonians 5:15).

15 Generosity "Grant that my children may 'be generous and willing to share [and so] lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age'" (1 Timothy 6:18-19).

16 Peace, Peaceability "Father, let my children 'make every effort to do what leads to peace'" (Romans 14:19).

17 Joy " May my children be filled 'with the joy given by the Holy Spirit'" (1 Thessalonians 1:6).

18 Perseverance " Lord, teach my children perseverance in all they do, and help them especially to 'run with perseverance the race marked out for [them]'" (Hebrews 12:1).

19 Humility " God, please cultivate in my children the ability to 'show true humility toward all'" (Titus 3:2).

20 Compassion " Lord, please clothe my children with the virtue of compassion" (Colossians 3:12).

21 Responsibility " Grant that my children may learn responsibility, 'for each one should carry his own load'" (Galatians 6:5).

22 Contentment " Father, teach my children 'the secret of being content in any and every situation. . . . through him who gives [them] strength'" (Philippians 4:12-13).

23 Faith " I pray that faith will find root and grow in my children's hearts, that by faith they may gain what has been promised to them" (Luke 17:5-6, Hebrews 11:1-40).

24 A Servant Heart " God, please help my children develop servant hearts, that they may serve wholeheartedly, 'as to the Lord, and not to men'" (Ephesians 6:7, KJV).

25 Hope " May the God of hope grant that my children may overflow with hope and hopefulness by the power of the Holy Spirit" (Romans 15:13).

26 The Willingness and Ability to Work Hard " Teach my children, Lord, to value work and to work hard at everything they do, 'as working for the Lord, not for men'" (Colossians 3:23).

27 A Passion for God " Lord, please instill in my children a soul that "followeth hard after thee," a heart that clings passionately to you (Psalm 63:8, KJV).

28 Self-Discipline " Father, I pray that my children may develop self-discipline, that they may acquire 'a disciplined and prudent life, doing what is right and just and fair'" (Proverbs 1:3).

29 Prayerfulness " Grant, Lord, that my children's lives may be marked by prayerfulness, that they may learn to 'pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests" (Ephesians 6:18).

30 Gratitude " Help my children to live lives that are always 'overflowing with thankfulness,' 'always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ'" (Colossians 2:7, Ephesians 5:20).

31 A Heart for Missions " Lord, please help my children to develop a heart for missions, a desire to see your glory declared among the nations, your marvelous deeds among all peoples" (Psalm 96:3).

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Last forever

Words to melt my heart...
"Mommy, I want you to be my kids mommy"
-Pickle

First Haircut (16 Months old) & a Little Blackmail Bonus

Dan and I love Pookies hair so much that we just let it grow. I planned on letting it grow a bit long, a little surfer or skater style. When we cut Pickles hair the first time it grew back really coarse so I have not wanted to cut Pookies. However, while at the grocery store a woman called our boy a "she". I just could not let that happen, so I relentlessly cut his hair. I did not shave it but kept some of the length so he still has his soft hair. Yet he now looks like a toddler and not a baby. =(

After bath he had a blast running around nakie, as wee ones do. Of course he has a blast playing with his little friend. I realized that I do not let him run around naked nearly enough because it was like he found a long lost friend. I even have video which can be used in the teens years as blackmail. However, considering that I am already posting some of these blackmail pictures, by the time I can use them as blackmail he will not care as he will be used to me showing people. Oh well, reality is I have no plans to blackmail my kids.

Before
After
BeforeAfter

And the fun after the haircut.....


Tuesday, May 19, 2009

The Diego Sway


I am making a huge assumption here that Pookie is hearing the "Go, Diego, Go" theme song in his head when Daddy says Diego because this is the same dance he does when he hears the song.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Innocence

During dinner while Nonna and Papa were visiting, Nonna got up from the table to get something in the kitchen. Pickle lovingly says, "Nonna has a BIG booty". Nobody says anything (I was sick on the couch). Pickle says it again all sweetly (really, he was saying this with love), "Nonna has a BIG booty" but this time he adds, "Nonna eats too much" and again, "Nonna has a BIG booty". Finally I hear laughter. Nonna laughs and says, "yeah, Nonna does have a big booty huh. But you love me even with a big booty." Pickles says, "I love you no matter how big your booty is!".

Lunch Time

Today while Pickle was eating his lunch, his favorite, peanut butter and jelly, I sat and ate slices of smoked cheddar cheese. I asked him if he wanted some cheese & he said he did. He tried a slice and then asked for some more so that he can put them on his PB & J sandwich. I gave his more, he put it on his sammie, he ate it and he liked it. This from a boy who will not eat the dinner I cook. I think I am offended.